Plaah, what a lame post the last one was.. I am not an emo!!! lol I am just a product of LONDON!!! Man, I so need to get out of here!!! But I just have to manage through summer in here... in boring London where everyone just thinks about money and success.
When I got back here in January I had all these ideas of going to courses to learn stuff and meet lots of new people and all that good jazz but I had completely forgotten that even breathing the air here costs money ~(even if it is very polluted)
I wanted to take a spanish course (£250) - I wanted to join the gym (£100/month) - I wanted to go out with my friends here (at least £100/night) - I wanted to just have a life here (at least £1000/month).. I know I am going on about money, but London is ridiculously expensive and it's starting to make me so sick. I want my life back but I can't even save to move out from here lol.
I just wrote a letter to Chris where I asked if he wanted to skip the country with me for a year - just travel out of Europe for a while and get some perspective of how life and world really is about.
I know while I have been in London I have changed a lot and I don't really like what I have become here. I want to be able to dye my hair pink if I want to and wear clothes that make people like me (what I am now that is) think that it's sad... see the thing is LONDON HAS MADE ME BORING. I have to wear a suit every day to work - I can't show my shoulders or knees or toes... My hair has to look neat and I have to put make up so I look pretty when we meet clients.
I work 9 hours a day and take probably another 2 hours to travel to work and back so during the week I don't really have much time for myself at all. When weekend comes I don't want to do anything because probably still on saturday I am stressed about work.
I know.... if you don't like your life - CHANGE IT... but that doesn't apply if you live in London. Here if you don't like your life - TOUGH - you can't afford to change it unless you first work for 20 years and earn enough money to pay off your debts.
ARGH, I wasn't supposed to whine in thie post... it's SUNNY for once and I just spent an hour having lunch next to a fountain (and 200 suits sitting next to me) - it was very nice and I probably burned my skin a bit.
I'm not as miserable as I make it sound, well sort of am but I mean there are good things in my life as well.. I have isolated myself a bit from the world at the moment, but I will be back with flying colours (literally) and then I will say GOOD BYE LONDON for good because this very obviously is not the place for me... (only took like 3 years for me to figure that out...)
When I got back here in January I had all these ideas of going to courses to learn stuff and meet lots of new people and all that good jazz but I had completely forgotten that even breathing the air here costs money ~(even if it is very polluted)
I wanted to take a spanish course (£250) - I wanted to join the gym (£100/month) - I wanted to go out with my friends here (at least £100/night) - I wanted to just have a life here (at least £1000/month).. I know I am going on about money, but London is ridiculously expensive and it's starting to make me so sick. I want my life back but I can't even save to move out from here lol.
I just wrote a letter to Chris where I asked if he wanted to skip the country with me for a year - just travel out of Europe for a while and get some perspective of how life and world really is about.
I know while I have been in London I have changed a lot and I don't really like what I have become here. I want to be able to dye my hair pink if I want to and wear clothes that make people like me (what I am now that is) think that it's sad... see the thing is LONDON HAS MADE ME BORING. I have to wear a suit every day to work - I can't show my shoulders or knees or toes... My hair has to look neat and I have to put make up so I look pretty when we meet clients.
I work 9 hours a day and take probably another 2 hours to travel to work and back so during the week I don't really have much time for myself at all. When weekend comes I don't want to do anything because probably still on saturday I am stressed about work.
I know.... if you don't like your life - CHANGE IT... but that doesn't apply if you live in London. Here if you don't like your life - TOUGH - you can't afford to change it unless you first work for 20 years and earn enough money to pay off your debts.
ARGH, I wasn't supposed to whine in thie post... it's SUNNY for once and I just spent an hour having lunch next to a fountain (and 200 suits sitting next to me) - it was very nice and I probably burned my skin a bit.
I'm not as miserable as I make it sound, well sort of am but I mean there are good things in my life as well.. I have isolated myself a bit from the world at the moment, but I will be back with flying colours (literally) and then I will say GOOD BYE LONDON for good because this very obviously is not the place for me... (only took like 3 years for me to figure that out...)
And this pic is me and my sister out on last Friday... we were a bit drunk (as you might be able to tell...) - so sorry the pic is a bit blurry.
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