life...

Nyaaaaaaaaaaaa - I have been so ill for the past 4 days... It's making me pretty miserable... Though today has been a bit better because I returned to work instead of laying in my bacteria infested bed feeling sorry for myself.
On Saturday I went to see Chris again, which of course was great but already then I was feeling a bit rubbish - I had taken 3 aspirins to keep me going and they did their job very well. And that was basically all I did for the whole weekend. Well at least anything that is somehow worth mentioning. Monday was a bank holiday here and it was all wasted because I was feeling ill... not that i had much plans anyway, but still I'd rather be bored and feel good than be bored and feel like shit. Yesterday I forced myself out for a little walk because I started to feel sick of the fact that I had been indoors for so long. I literally felt as if I was going to die - My lungs were so full of slime that it was hard for me to breath and I was sweating like a little pig (romantic eh?). I hadn't slept well for the whole weekend either so my mind was a mess, I felt like I was in another world, like I was high, even though I had only taken few aspirins that day. My reflexes were really slow, I could have easily been ran over by a car - lucky I was walking in a park. Anyway, as I was walking back home I almost started to cry because I thought I was going to die. I know it sounds ridiculous but you should have seen the state I was in. I was picturing an image of myself going to tell Chris, all my friends and family that I had only 2 weeks time to live... it made me really sad - stupid, right?
Chris called me in the evening and made me feel a lot better. He told me that he should have been with me to take care of me and I couldn't agree with him more. Was really nice to talk with him again, I miss him so much..

Well I'm back to work now (eventhough I am not feeling that great yet...) but one more day in my room of misery would just have broken me - I needed some social contacts. Maybe I will write some more tomorrow... Now I need to go and get me a cup of nice hot tea.