Morning...

This morning I woke up with sun shining to my eyes a bit brighter than it usually does at 6 am in the morning. I felt relaxed and was checking how many more minutes I had until my alarm was going to go off. The clock on my wall said 7:30... 7:30!!!!!!! The bus I catch to work leaves 7:36!!!!
So goodbye to the morning streching in the bed - I was out of the bed, fully dressed 7:35 and ready to face the world. I am not quite sure how I managed it but I was at work already 8:10 - 10 minutes late but that was because I didn't make it to the bus stop in 1 minute from my house.
I have been so bored today at work and it makes the day go by really slow. My money issues are stressing me out constantly and I am a bit puzzled on what to do next. I need to pay off my credit card somehow, but the money I earn in my current job hardly pays for my everyday living, so I don't see myself paying off my creditcard anytime soon. I need to win the lottery!!! I have made some stupid choices in my life and one of them was taking my credit card to US with me... But I can't look back and feel pity for myself for the rest of my life - I just need to pay off that card and get rid of it, simple as that.
I have been thinking about my life and why I feel so anxious to move and change my life all the time. Eversince I broke up with my ex Ross about year and a half ago I have been in constant search for myself. I want some kind of stability but I don't know where to find it.
Ultimately I want a job where I can be with people - not earn millions but enough to pay my bills. I want a nice little flat with a living room, bedroom, bathroom for just myself. I don't want to share anymore.. ever!
I basically want the life I was living when I was in Finland...
So... that has made me wonder, do I want to live in UK anymore? I don't want to share, but I can't afford to live by myself. I don't want to work in an office but I can't afford to work in a cafe or a shop...
I think my next mission will be to convince Chris to leave UK with me to go live somewhere else (Finland maybe...) - or I have to look into living outside of London and if it is possible moneywise.
Ok, I think it's time for some lunch... Time... please go faster....

Peace out!