I miss Chris :(

Ok, so I haven't been writing for a while.. have had lots of things on my mind.
So Chris, my boyfriend, is in the army detention center for 6 months - the earliest he can get out is on the 1st of October.
I know that this summer will be the hottest ever and every single sunny day I am going curse this world because I won't be able to spend any of those days with the one person I really want to spend them with. He has been gone for a week now and I am litrally going nuts. For a month we were in constant contact with each other and if I didn't hear from him for few hours I started to worry that something was wrong... and now I have no contact to him what so ever.
I have been thinking about him a lot - I lay on my bed and try to think what he is doing at that very moment. At first I was signing on to msn and checking his blog thinking that I might find some news of him there, but of course I never found anything. I freak out sometimes and start to think if it all is too much for me to handle - after all we have been together for only a month.... well month now, we had the whole living together thing last summer that turned out ugly. But the thing is... already year ago I really liked him and thought that we would be really good together because we have all seen what happens if I end up with a traditional nice guy - it just doesn't work out because it's too ordinary, but army detention center... for 6 months... come on... give me a break!
Anyway, as you may imagine I haven't been too happy lately. I feel very bitter about life and often feel like just hiding in my bed and cry because I miss Chris so much. I have made an effort to go out and see people because it can make the time go by faster but at some point I always feel like I just have to leave (especially if I am with couples) because in a way I start to feel really jealous because they don't have people they really care for taken away from them for months and months. Even if they are not together they can call each other and tell them that they miss them and all that jazz. I know it is a very selfish way to think about things but at least I am admitting it - I feel sorry for myself for having to put up with this, it is really breaking my heart and I am sorry about it, ok? But there is nothing I can do about it, I don't like sitting at work with tears in my eyes, feeling anxious because I don't know if my boyfriend is even ok... but that's how the world spins around me at the moment and I just need to take it day by day.
I got a call from him on Saturday though... just a quick call but still it made my day. I almost started crying when I heard him on the phone... that much I had missed hearing from him...
He told me that he was doing fine and that he has been thinking about me a lot... it all felt like from a movie or a TV show... me talking to my man who is locked away... All I needed was a white dress and a wind machine blowing on my hair.
Anyway, it was good to hear that he missed me - that I am not the only one jumping on the walls... and I think he probably though the same.
Well... another thing he told me was that I can go see him on the weekends if I want to (and of course I want to and I will!!). It's a bit of a trek from London, but I will do it as often as I can because I really need to keep seeing him... I can only see him for 2 hours and we are not allowed to touch each other expect when we meet and say good bye, but I will take it - it is so worth it. I can't go see him yet next weekend because he has to have been there for a certain time plus my sister is here anyway.
Well..
That's all from me for now. I think I needed to get that out from my system so I can start writing about boring subjects like work or that strange warp guy who actually sat next to me in the bus this morning (I was secretly keeping an eye on him so he wouldn't kill me or anything...)
But... back to being bored at work now.