Manual

I have always thought that I am very low maintenance as a girl. I don't expect to get presents every day - or even ever to be honest, I genuinely get surprised every time someone gets something for me. I don't expect flowers (which of course would make my day). I don't expect cooked meals after a hard day at work or suprising little notes telling me I am special. I don't expect text messages every hour with sweet nothingness in them or silly email cards with a bunny spelling words "I love you" - I honestly don't expect any of those in a relationship. Naturally they are things that would be nice and would make me smile and forget about the little negative things that might cause an argument but they are not a neccesity for me in a relationship. I guess that's a way to show to the other person that you are thinking of them... but for me it is enough if the other person shows respect to me and makes me feel safe and happy.
I am one of those people who needs reassurance every day that everything is ok. A little thing could make my world rumble but if I have a strong individual besides me telling me to relax and not to worry I will be fine.
I need hugs and kisses in the morning, in the day and in the evening. I need to cuddle and hear sweet words and plans that might not ever even happen. That's all - that's the incredients for a healthy relationship with me...
I flame up easy, I have always been told that I am very temperamentic personality. Some would say it is good some would say that it is very annoying - I say that it's just who I am and you need to deal with it accordingly.
I get upset about the silliest things but 10 minutes later I can be laughing about something completely different and have completely forgotten what I was upset about. The worst thing at that point is to ignore me or stir it to make it worse.
If I don't get my daily affection I can turn nasty, insecure and bossy. I will start to pick on the smallest things because I am being taken for granted (or at least that is how it feels like since there is no way of knowing the other person thinks of you if they don't show it).
I think all this is pretty standard behaviour for a girl - what you think?

Anyway - that was just a little side note of my general feelings. I was in Finland for a week with my boyfriend Chris. Was great to see my family and some of my friends, breath clean air and swim in a lake that had crystal clear water. We barbequed like every single day and went to sauna - was highly relaxing compared to the sorry existense I have in London at the moment. My work is really stressing me out, eventhough this is the 2nd day back here and all I want to do is curl up in a ball and forget that I have any responsibilities.
I had a meeting with my boss today as well about my payrise and he was being really nice and understanding... which was horrible because my nerves are really shakey at the moment and anything could make me cry. I did manage to keep myself together though...
I just wish this week would be over already. I need a weekend to just sleep and spoil myself. I know I just got back from holiday and I should be all relaxed but things have been a bit "hard" emotionally lol... I need to have one of those "what's the meaning of life" conversations with myself again.